Frank Sinatra: Young At Heart
Where's The Beef
"Just give me FIRE!"
Peter and Marij.
My anxious hosts
PROST
I see your future in nuclear washing machines!
Marij in a "Happy Place!"
PROZZZT
Jes Chill' N
Peter
Heather..Aka: Sunshine!
PAUL SIXTA
More wine everyone!
Marij, "I found my happy place"
YUMM
Dinner is served!
JOURNAL UPDATE/FRIDAY/MAY 19, 2006

Music reflects my Moods...and they vary from Moment To Moment!  If you’re checking out past journal entrées pages 1, 2, 3 or 4 be sure to
start from the bottom up to receive in order.  Click on any of the pics for a full size view.  If you’re already caught up on my past entries and
pics enjoy the Music Selections on those pages, changed w/ every update!!!

Main Page Music Selection: ILLEGAL SMILE/JOHN PRIME

Journal 1 Music Selection:  AFTERNOON LOVE-IN/PREFUSE 73

(Journal 1 page and Music Selection dedicated to G.H./JES CHILL'N)

Journal 2 Music Selection: TELL ME SOMETHING GOOD/RUFUS FEAT. CHAKA KAHN

Journal 3 Music Selection: LET’S DO IT FOR LOVE/ABRA MOORE

Journal 4 Music selection: SMALLTOWN BOY/BRONSKI BEAT

*** Anyone looking for a place to live anytime after Jun. 1 PLEASE CONTACT ME ASAP…My condo is up for rent (just off Oltorf on Burleson
Rd.)And possibly soon up on the market for sale (EMAIL ME @ the email address above to inquire***

HEY ALL,

ZERO HOUR HERE…IT’S A STRANGE PLACE TO BE TO SAY THE LEAST.  THOSE FINAL MOMENTS TO BE SAVORED WITH THOSE WHO
HAVE BECOME A SIGNIFICANT PART OF MY JOURNEY.  IT’S PRETTY MUCH A DIFFICULT THING TO PUT DOWN IN WORDS REALLY.  I’M
AT A LOSS.  YEAH, ME…A LOSS FOR WORDS. HAHA!  I’LL DO MY BEST HERE.

UNTIL THIS MORNING THE WEATHER HERE FOR THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS HAVE BEEN QUITE PLEASANT.  LIKE THOSE FEW DAYS IN
AUSTIN BEFORE HAVING TO RUN THE A.C. AND WE’RE ABLE TO LET THE FRESH COOL AIR IN, IT’S BEEN QUITE NICE AND
COMFORTABLE.  BUT TODAY IT’S NOT SO NICE.  IT’S RAINING AND A LOT COOLER OUT.  I HAVEN’T PACKED MY WINTER COAT YET
AND SERIOUSLY MAY NEED IT AGAIN.  FUNNY!!!  

LAST NIGHT WAS SPENT W/ PETER AND MARIJ IN A SORT OF FAREWELL DINNER AND MOJITAS.  BUT BEFORE WE STARTED MOJITAS
WE KILLED OFF I THINK, 4 BOTTLES OF A NICE WHITE AUSTRALIAN WINE…HMMM, BETWEEN 4 ADULTS THAT PUTS US AT A BOTTLE
APIECEJ.  AND DINNER WAS SUPERB (check out the pics from the evening).

OK…SO A WHOLE YEAR HAS GONE BY!  MUCH HAS BEEN LEARNED.  MORE, IS HARD TO PUT IN WORDS BECAUSE IT’S SIMPLY THE
EXPERIENCE ITSELF THAT’S INDIVIDUAL.  I THINK I’VE DONE MY BEST IN ADAPTING TO THE CHOICES I’VE MADE.  FOR ME, THAT’S A
GOOD THING.  SOMETIMES DIFFICULT TO GO WITH THAT FLOW OF CHANGE I ALWAYS SEEM TO MANAGE AND FIND MYSELF RICHER
FOR THE EXPERIENCE.

AND WOW…CHECK IT OUT…I WAS JUST HANDED THIS GREAT OPPURTUNITY BECAUSE I HAD MY EYES AND EARS OPEN TO IT I
GUESS.  THERE ARE NO REGRETS!  IT’S MY VERY OWN PERSONAL EXPERIENCE.  I SIMPLY OPENED THE DOOR IS ALL!  I CREATED
MY OWN REALITY.  MEANWHILE NEW DOORS JUST KEEP OPENING FOR ME ALONG THE WAY.  

SEARCHING?  YES…ALWAYS, I THINK!  WHERE DO I BELONG?  WHAT IS MY PURPOSE?  I DREAM THOSE SAME THINGS MOST PEOPLE
DREAM ABOUT.  AND MEANWHILE, I CHOOSE TO INDULGE IN FUFILLING MY WHIMS AND FINDING SUCCESSFULLY…HAPPINESS ALONG
THE WAY.  IT’S MY JOURNEY AND IT CERTAINLY ISN’T OVER (I haven’t heard the fat lady sing yet)!

I HAD THE PRIVILAGE THE OTHER DAY TO DO A PHOTO SHOOT WITH QUITE A TALENTED ARTIST (PAUL SIXTA/see portfolio pic above
of his work).  I HAVEN’T SEEN THE RESULTS YET BUT WILL BE GLAD TO SHARE THE FINISHED PRODUCT ONCE IT’S DONE.  I DIDN’T GO
WITH ANY EXPECTATIONS OTHER THAN THE ADVENTURE OF GETTING TO WORK WITH HIM, AN OPPURTUNITY TO TREAT MYSELF TO
THE EXPERIENCE.  

IT BECAME FAR MORE THAN THAT THOUGH.  INSTEAD, THERE WAS THIS ELEMENT OF DYNAMICS THAT GAVE THE EXPERIENCE A
NICE TWIST.  AND IN THE PROCCESS I MADE A FRIEND FOR LIFE.

IT’S THOSE MOMENTS THAT KEEP ME ADVENTURING, THOSE CERTAIN CONNECTIONS THAT ARE MADE THAT CERTAINLY ENRICH AND
EMPOWER ME.  AND YEAH, I LEAVE HERE IN A FEW DAYS BUT I TAKE WITH ME SOMETHNG INSIDE THAT WILL BE WITH ME FOR
ALWAYS.  SOMETHING I CAN CONTINUE TO APPLY ON MY JOURNEY.

I HAVE YET TO DISCOVER WHERE THAT JOURNEY WILL TAKE ME NEXT, FOR THE MOMENT, ATLANTA.  BUT I LEAVE ALL OPTIONS
AND ALL DOORS OPEN IN BEING TRUE TO MYSELF.  THE ADVENTURE IS FAR FROM OVER AND YOU CAN EXPECT TO EXPECT THE
UNEXPECTED STILL…SO STAY TUNED!  

MEANWHILE ENJOY THE FINAL MOMENTS OF THIS SHARED ADVENTURE, THE MUSIC AND THE PICS.  I MAY STILL SURPRISE YOU WITH
A POP QUIZ ON THIS LEG OF THE JOURNEY SO CATCH UP AND DO SOME EXPLORING OF YOUR OWN THRU THE JOURNAL PAGES AND
LINKS.  NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU MIGHT FIND. J Okay, BACK TO SAVORING MY FINAL DAYS IN EINDHOVEN, THE NETHERLANDS (and
ugggghh, packing).

TO YOUR HEALTH…PEACE AND LOVE, JES
Were Not in Kansas Anymore!
Ramons First ever Mimosa
Mimosa Sunday
Looks South Austin to Me!
Dutch Texas Lovers!
Where Am I?
South Austin or Eindoven
Journal Update/Thursday/April 27, 2006

Music reflects my Moods...and they vary from Moment To Moment!  If you’re checking out past journal entrées pages 1, 2, 3 or 4 be sure to
start from the bottom up to receive in order.  Click on any of the pics for a full size view.  If you’re already caught up on my past entries and
pics enjoy the Music Selections on those pages, changed w/ every update!!!

*** Anyone looking for a place to live anytime after Jun. 1 PLEASE CONTACT ME ASAP…My condo is up for rent (just off Oltorf on Burleson
Rd.)And possibly soon up on the market for sale (EMAIL ME @ the email address above to inquire***  

Main Page Music Selection: (For M&M) Don't Give Up/Kate Bush and Peter Gabriel
Journal 1 Music Selection: Human Behavior (Close To Human Mix)/Bjork
(Journal 1 page and Music Selection dedicated to G.H. /JES CHILL'N)
Journal 2 Music Selection: Tainted Love (rare The Cure-M. Almond Mix) / Soft Cell
Journal 3 Music Selection: Keeps My Body Warm / Abra Moore
Journal 4 Music Selection: Fantasy (long version) / Earth, Wind, and Fire

It’s very strange being in my last month here.  I’m feeling all sorts of things.  Anxious to go back to some kind of familiar, sad to leave what I’ve
come to know and difficult to begin sorting out all I’m feeling.

It’s really hard to put it in words.  I don’t think I am able to explain so well unless you’ve experienced living in a different country.  In making this
my home I have found great difficulties in overcoming the language barrier.  It’s not cultural differences I don’t think so much as perhaps trying
to express oneself in one’s own language and then trying to translate it.

It’s here where I believe misunderstandings happen.  Sometimes being difficult enough to express myself in my own language in my own
country here I have to take into consideration the fact of feelings being translated.  When you think about that it makes sense, that in the
translation it’s very easy for it to be misunderstood.

I’ve in some ways, taken for granted the fact that most of the friends I have made here speak pretty good English.  Without realizing it I expect
them to understand me in my language and when we communicate I am expecting them to express themselves also in my language.   The
misconception comes in the form of their attempt to communicate and translate the best possible way versus my non-attempt.  No wonder the
French dislike Americans so much J  

If I didn’t have such barriers of my own in languages I’d have taken the time to learn more Dutch.  But would a year have been enough time to
be able to communicate in such a way that wouldn’t cause misunderstandings?

Then there is the fact of trying to express feelings no one else that unless they were me could really know or understand fully.  Like living in a
different country where I’m the foreigner here trying to establish my friends and family where they already have.  And not as any kind of insult
to The Dutch but they aren’t the easiest people to get to know (in my experience).

I try to put myself in their shoes if they were living in my country for a year.  I think I’d have to be here a lot longer to maybe feel more a part of
their circle of friends and family.  

In so many ways, I’m alone here.  No, not feeling sorry for myself…but stating the fact that I just don’t have the same kind of established
friends and family I’d like to have in living somewhere and calling it home.

Friends I can simply call upon to share a beer or a bottle of wine and talk about nothing unparticular.  So many times I’ve just wanted a friend
to hang out with for an afternoon of sightseeing, movie watching or a nice dinner but mostly that intimate feeling of friendship where I can just
pick up the phone to a friend asking about my day…good or bad, just those I feel I can pretty much talk to about anything.

I’d like to think I can pretty much call home anywhere as I’m about to transition once again by my own choice to a different location.  Perhaps it’
s because it’s really the 1st time I’ve gone to a different country for this amount of time that this is so prevalent, compared to having left Austin
before to other places within the United States.

All the same, I’m going to miss the friendships I’ve made here at whatever capacity greatly.  Sad to leave what has already been established
yet, I’d hope as in other connections I have made over the years in so many different places that most are consistent and for life.  Maybe more
in some ways with the simple fact they took longer to establish here in a different country.

It’s my own journey…I’ve made these choices just to be able to experience life, whatever the results in the process.  I don’t see anything as a
bad choice or a wrong decision.  Just observing and learning along the way.  Otherwise my life would be quite dull and boring I think.

Well…I think I’ll keep on in taking risks, facing fears and adventuring life as much as I possibly can…so…stay tuned and continue to expect the
unexpected.

Peace and Love, Jes
London Tour 2001
Majesty Theatre
Texas Embassy Restaurant
London View
Double Decker
London Bridge is
Falling Down
Top of London
London 2001
Jay and Jes
London
Journal Update: Thursday/April 13, 2006

Music reflects my Moods...and they vary from Moment To Moment!  If you’re checking out past journal entrées pages 1, 2, and 3 be sure to
start from the bottom up to receive in order.  Click on any of the pics for a full size view.  If you’re already caught up on my past entries and
pics enjoy the Music Selections on those pages, changed w/ every update!!!  A pop-up quiz will be given on all the updates on a date of my
choice (so study away)!

And for those my space people out there http://www.myspace.com/7435112 please add me!!!

Main Page Music Selection: It Ain't what You Do/The Fun Boy Three w/ Bananarama

Journal 1 Music Selection: (Journal 1 page and Music Selection dedicated to G.H. /JES CHILL'N)

It's Going Down/Blackalicious

Journal 2 Music Selection: Sex (I'm a Bitch Extended Mix)/Berlin

Journal 3 Music Selection: Home/Abra Moore

I just had a nice visit with my friend Marcos in London for a long weekend.  I hadn’t seen him since 1st meeting him while passing thru on
my way back from Greece 4 years ago.  Gosh, has it already been that long?  I want so bad to go back there but the opportunity just hasn’t
yet presented itself.  I’m confident that one day I’ll make it back.  I’m sure of it…I’m that determined.  You’d think I’d have done it while out
here in Europe this year…it’s not so far away and the flights are cheap enough.  

I think I’m just waiting for the right time to go back with the right peeps to share the experience with.  Next time I’d really like to check into
one of those set your own course island hopping/rent your own boat deals.  Last time I checked it was cheaper than accommodations and
food if I can get 10 of my friends to do it.  

Anyone interested in sometime?  It could be a great experience to be had by all.  They’ve got these deals where they have a full crew
cooking for you and your accommodations are right there on the boat…and you choose your own damn course.  I’d want to go back to
Santorini and Crete for sure.

The pics of London posted here on this update were taken 4 years ago when I was there taken by my friend/travel companion, Jay from
Dallas.  Sorry…cop out maybe but I wasn’t at all a tourist there on this trip.  It was a chill weekend spending time w/ Marcos. I intended on
cooking up one of my special dinners one night for him to show my appreciation for his hospitality and free accommodations.  

I instead, end up cooking dinner for him and friends (8 of them that came out of the woodwork suddenly).  Caribbean Chicken Breasts w/
me Famous Mash Potatoes and for dessert, Banana Pudding (Didn’t have the ingredients there to make Snickerdoodle Banana Pudding).

I didn’t mind doing all the cooking for them.  It was quite an honor actually.  I can literally now give myself a label of “International Chef”.  I’ve
been cooking all over the place out here.  Next stop professionally, Atlanta!  So…I better get used to the challenge of cooking for groups of
more than 2.  The idea is to get the quality out w/ love…lots of it.  I’ll have it no other way.

I’m trying not to count the days in my preparation to go back to the States.  It’s going to be a bit of a cultural shock I believe.  Home has
been here for a whole year.  There is this excitement and uncertainty of the unknown ahead.

And of course a great part of my heart will always go to Austin.  How can it not?  It’s been such a significant part of my life since 1st moving
to the area at age 11 (gosh, has it already been 15 years since I 1st moved to Austin…ha-ha???).  But I think I’ve discovered that there is
plenty of love in my heart to go around.  Just like people there are so many places I feel I need to see and experience still.

Austin isn’t going any where.  I’ve had times away and for long periods before.  I’m certain, if life allows I’ll be back.  I’m just following my
heart at the moment and it takes me to Atlanta next.  For how long, who the hell knows???

And I’ll have some time in Austin before that adventure begins…enough time to see my friends.  Atlanta isn’t so damn far….a hell of a lot
closer than the Netherlands.  Good ole Southwest Airlines ;)

So….seriously I need to put in motion the renting of my condo.  I’ll post again on Craig list but throwing it out 1st amongst all of you there in
Austin.  Basically I am looking for someone I can trust.  The place will come mostly furnished but all that is negotiable.  I’m also at some
point going to put it up for sale so that too, is negotiable.  

It’s available after Jun 1st.  (It’s on Burleson Rd… just off Oltorf near bus lines okay so it’s not the infamous 78704 zip code but…it’s in
walking distance).  Any questions in reference to this please contact me immediately.  I will need to jump right on this when I am back the
weekend after the 31st of May so that I can be rest assured (I’m gong to need the cash flow to be quite honest pretty quickly and if I don’t
get the place situated then it will delay my next move to Atlanta.

If you, or anyone you know is interested please contact me ASAP by email (at the top of this page).

So…there it is!  My journal update in a nutshell…and oh yeah, I’m totally feeling like a nut at the moment.  All these choices (making me
nuts)…my own!!!  It’s not so bad really…it all goes into the phrases I dig “why be normal” and “what’s normal anyway”???

Anyways, stay tuned and expect the unexpected…

Peace and Love Always, Jes
Journal Update: Saturday/April 1, 2006

Music reflects my Moods...and they vary from Moment To Moment!  If you’re checking out past journal entrées pages 1, 2, and 3 be sure to
start from the bottom up to receive in order.  Click on any of the pics for a full size view.  If you’re already caught up on my past entries and
pics enjoy the Music Selections on those pages, changed w/ every update!!!  A pop-up quiz will be given on all the updates on a date of my
choice (so study away)!

Main Page Music Selection: Nemesis/Shriekback
Journal 1 Music Selection: Dr. Funkenstein/George Clinton & Parliament Funkadelic (Journal 1 page and Music Selection dedicated to G.H.
/JES CHILL'N)
Journal 2 Music Selection: Miss Celies's Blues/Shug Avery (Color Purple Soundtrack)
Journal 3 Music Selection: Shining Star/Abra Moore

April Fools Day…I’ve been already evil to my friends here telling them I’m sick as a dog and won’t be able to join them tonight to a dance
party (we’ve had tickets for the sold out event for over a month).  The joke didn’t last too long as I realized just how evil it was to begin with
and well; I couldn’t keep a straight face w/ Heather.  I’m sure they’ll get me back at some point in the day.

Well, another birthday has come and gone w/out a hitch.  I mean really…didn’t I say last year that it was my birthday year the entire year?  
That, it sort of has been I believe.  It was during this time last year I’m preparing for my European adventure.  And here now, I’m preparing
for my return back to the States.  Wow…that was a whirlwind!  

But then again, life is!  The adventures don’t come without ups and downs.  That’s all part of the ride I think.  Here, I’ve had this really great
opportunity to see things I may have never seen.  Some may say I’ve been on a year long holiday but it’s a lot more than that really.  I’d say
a year here qualifies me as a resident (maybe not in a legal sense) but I’ve purchased groceries at the Albert Heijn, been to a Dutch
birthday party, mingled w/ the culture (even riding a bike sometimes as the Dutch do)…I’d say that qualifies me somewhat as a resident.  

Most of all I’ve established a foundation here.  I’ve made friends, I have a home, I’ve experienced “here” this year.  All in all for me…that’s
good!  So by choice I’m off to my next adventure which just so happens to take me back thru Austin to take care of business and then to
Atlanta where I feel I’ll get the most out of a challenge.

I’ve never been there but I already have friends there.  So I’ll go with the new challenges that face me just like I did coming to Holland.  I
suspect a bit of a cultural shock.  I mean …it’s not like I can run down to the local convenience store and order magic mushrooms for my
birthday and discovering they didn’t work go back to the place of purchase and be given 2 for the price of one to make up for those).  
Pretty funny huh?  I thought so!

So yeah, I had a great birthday weekend (I’m still celebrating).  Had dinner w/ a good friend and watched the “Wizard of Oz” (too bad the
1st purchase was a bummer).  The 2nd attempt was better and we watched the beautiful visual and sound movie “Baraka”.  Most important
was how I spent my time and with whom.  

I will have to say I’ve been in sort of a funk off and on.  But hey, I’m about to once again embark into the unknown and expecting the
unexpected I expect to be feeling something  (I don’t think I’d be human if I wasn’t feeling).  The stuff I know and aware of is I now have
some friends here and I’m going to miss them…just like I missed a bunch of you when I chose to leave.  

But I look at it like this…I’ve got friends I haven’t met yet…always!  And in my experience the friend’s I’ve made in different places continue
to be consistent.  It’s just more places to go and visit (or stay a while).  I consider it enriching and empowering…. No closed doors where I
choose to keep them open.

Take for instance my choice to go to Atlanta…not only do I get the opportunity to challenge my cooking abilities but I get to live close to
some good people I’ve not yet had the opportunity to do so.  So there it is!  It’s just an opportunity I’m choosing to take at the moment.  
And, oh yeah…scared just like a little boy would be.  That’s part of the challenge.

So…there it is!  Touch down on American soil May 31st.  I’ll spend a couple days at my moms in Ft. Worth before arriving back to Austin
that weekend.  I’m looking forward to seeing the whole lot of you and trying to get in some quality time.

I know there’s still 2 months left here and I intend on enjoying every moment.  Next week I’m off for a long weekend to London to see a
friend I met 3 years ago while passing thru on my way back from Greece (there’s that consistency I’m talking about).  On that note I’m going
to be in the moment here as much as possible and see and do everything the opportunity allows…the moment does include preparations
back as well.  

I’ve been fortunate this past year to have a great tenant and will be looking for one of those again…so seriously (I prefer word of mouth) if
you or anyone you know is looking to rent, my condo will again be up for rent anytime after May.  Pop me over an email if interested (email
link on top of this webpage) and I’ll give you any information you need to know.  As of this past year, I’ve rented my 1 bdr. /1 bath off Oltorf
fully furnished and with w/d for $625.00 a month.  If there is a desire to take a look at my place before I get back let me know and I’ll contact
someone who can let you in.

It’s important to get this done ASAP as I would like to get someone in right away after getting back.  It’d of course be nice to rent it out to
someone I already know or someone they know.  For now you have my email as contact info and my mobile phone number should remain
the same as Sprint has been being paid a monthly fee for that same number…but yeah, I know, it’s Sprint we’re talking about and don’t let
me even start on my past bad experiences now).

Expect a journal update sometime after my return from London with some new pics (as if you’ve had time to finish looking at the last
posted) and whatever adventures happen between now and then (the x-rated version of my journaling can only be found in my private
thoughts and those I share with selected few and most taken to my grave….shit, I need to burn my daily journal then I think).  

Anyways, stay tuned and expect the unexpected.  What’d ya expect?


Peace and Love Ya’ll, Jes