| JOURNAL UPDATE/FRIDAY/MAY 19, 2006 Music reflects my Moods...and they vary from Moment To Moment! If you’re checking out past journal entrées pages 1, 2, 3 or 4 be sure to start from the bottom up to receive in order. Click on any of the pics for a full size view. If you’re already caught up on my past entries and pics enjoy the Music Selections on those pages, changed w/ every update!!! Main Page Music Selection: ILLEGAL SMILE/JOHN PRIME Journal 1 Music Selection: AFTERNOON LOVE-IN/PREFUSE 73 (Journal 1 page and Music Selection dedicated to G.H./JES CHILL'N) Journal 2 Music Selection: TELL ME SOMETHING GOOD/RUFUS FEAT. CHAKA KAHN Journal 3 Music Selection: LET’S DO IT FOR LOVE/ABRA MOORE Journal 4 Music selection: SMALLTOWN BOY/BRONSKI BEAT *** Anyone looking for a place to live anytime after Jun. 1 PLEASE CONTACT ME ASAP…My condo is up for rent (just off Oltorf on Burleson Rd.)And possibly soon up on the market for sale (EMAIL ME @ the email address above to inquire*** HEY ALL, ZERO HOUR HERE…IT’S A STRANGE PLACE TO BE TO SAY THE LEAST. THOSE FINAL MOMENTS TO BE SAVORED WITH THOSE WHO HAVE BECOME A SIGNIFICANT PART OF MY JOURNEY. IT’S PRETTY MUCH A DIFFICULT THING TO PUT DOWN IN WORDS REALLY. I’M AT A LOSS. YEAH, ME…A LOSS FOR WORDS. HAHA! I’LL DO MY BEST HERE. UNTIL THIS MORNING THE WEATHER HERE FOR THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS HAVE BEEN QUITE PLEASANT. LIKE THOSE FEW DAYS IN AUSTIN BEFORE HAVING TO RUN THE A.C. AND WE’RE ABLE TO LET THE FRESH COOL AIR IN, IT’S BEEN QUITE NICE AND COMFORTABLE. BUT TODAY IT’S NOT SO NICE. IT’S RAINING AND A LOT COOLER OUT. I HAVEN’T PACKED MY WINTER COAT YET AND SERIOUSLY MAY NEED IT AGAIN. FUNNY!!! LAST NIGHT WAS SPENT W/ PETER AND MARIJ IN A SORT OF FAREWELL DINNER AND MOJITAS. BUT BEFORE WE STARTED MOJITAS WE KILLED OFF I THINK, 4 BOTTLES OF A NICE WHITE AUSTRALIAN WINE…HMMM, BETWEEN 4 ADULTS THAT PUTS US AT A BOTTLE APIECEJ. AND DINNER WAS SUPERB (check out the pics from the evening). OK…SO A WHOLE YEAR HAS GONE BY! MUCH HAS BEEN LEARNED. MORE, IS HARD TO PUT IN WORDS BECAUSE IT’S SIMPLY THE EXPERIENCE ITSELF THAT’S INDIVIDUAL. I THINK I’VE DONE MY BEST IN ADAPTING TO THE CHOICES I’VE MADE. FOR ME, THAT’S A GOOD THING. SOMETIMES DIFFICULT TO GO WITH THAT FLOW OF CHANGE I ALWAYS SEEM TO MANAGE AND FIND MYSELF RICHER FOR THE EXPERIENCE. AND WOW…CHECK IT OUT…I WAS JUST HANDED THIS GREAT OPPURTUNITY BECAUSE I HAD MY EYES AND EARS OPEN TO IT I GUESS. THERE ARE NO REGRETS! IT’S MY VERY OWN PERSONAL EXPERIENCE. I SIMPLY OPENED THE DOOR IS ALL! I CREATED MY OWN REALITY. MEANWHILE NEW DOORS JUST KEEP OPENING FOR ME ALONG THE WAY. SEARCHING? YES…ALWAYS, I THINK! WHERE DO I BELONG? WHAT IS MY PURPOSE? I DREAM THOSE SAME THINGS MOST PEOPLE DREAM ABOUT. AND MEANWHILE, I CHOOSE TO INDULGE IN FUFILLING MY WHIMS AND FINDING SUCCESSFULLY…HAPPINESS ALONG THE WAY. IT’S MY JOURNEY AND IT CERTAINLY ISN’T OVER (I haven’t heard the fat lady sing yet)! I HAD THE PRIVILAGE THE OTHER DAY TO DO A PHOTO SHOOT WITH QUITE A TALENTED ARTIST (PAUL SIXTA/see portfolio pic above of his work). I HAVEN’T SEEN THE RESULTS YET BUT WILL BE GLAD TO SHARE THE FINISHED PRODUCT ONCE IT’S DONE. I DIDN’T GO WITH ANY EXPECTATIONS OTHER THAN THE ADVENTURE OF GETTING TO WORK WITH HIM, AN OPPURTUNITY TO TREAT MYSELF TO THE EXPERIENCE. IT BECAME FAR MORE THAN THAT THOUGH. INSTEAD, THERE WAS THIS ELEMENT OF DYNAMICS THAT GAVE THE EXPERIENCE A NICE TWIST. AND IN THE PROCCESS I MADE A FRIEND FOR LIFE. IT’S THOSE MOMENTS THAT KEEP ME ADVENTURING, THOSE CERTAIN CONNECTIONS THAT ARE MADE THAT CERTAINLY ENRICH AND EMPOWER ME. AND YEAH, I LEAVE HERE IN A FEW DAYS BUT I TAKE WITH ME SOMETHNG INSIDE THAT WILL BE WITH ME FOR ALWAYS. SOMETHING I CAN CONTINUE TO APPLY ON MY JOURNEY. I HAVE YET TO DISCOVER WHERE THAT JOURNEY WILL TAKE ME NEXT, FOR THE MOMENT, ATLANTA. BUT I LEAVE ALL OPTIONS AND ALL DOORS OPEN IN BEING TRUE TO MYSELF. THE ADVENTURE IS FAR FROM OVER AND YOU CAN EXPECT TO EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED STILL…SO STAY TUNED! MEANWHILE ENJOY THE FINAL MOMENTS OF THIS SHARED ADVENTURE, THE MUSIC AND THE PICS. I MAY STILL SURPRISE YOU WITH A POP QUIZ ON THIS LEG OF THE JOURNEY SO CATCH UP AND DO SOME EXPLORING OF YOUR OWN THRU THE JOURNAL PAGES AND LINKS. NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU MIGHT FIND. J Okay, BACK TO SAVORING MY FINAL DAYS IN EINDHOVEN, THE NETHERLANDS (and ugggghh, packing). TO YOUR HEALTH…PEACE AND LOVE, JES |
| Journal Update/Thursday/April 27, 2006 Music reflects my Moods...and they vary from Moment To Moment! If you’re checking out past journal entrées pages 1, 2, 3 or 4 be sure to start from the bottom up to receive in order. Click on any of the pics for a full size view. If you’re already caught up on my past entries and pics enjoy the Music Selections on those pages, changed w/ every update!!! *** Anyone looking for a place to live anytime after Jun. 1 PLEASE CONTACT ME ASAP…My condo is up for rent (just off Oltorf on Burleson Rd.)And possibly soon up on the market for sale (EMAIL ME @ the email address above to inquire*** Main Page Music Selection: (For M&M) Don't Give Up/Kate Bush and Peter Gabriel Journal 1 Music Selection: Human Behavior (Close To Human Mix)/Bjork (Journal 1 page and Music Selection dedicated to G.H. /JES CHILL'N) Journal 2 Music Selection: Tainted Love (rare The Cure-M. Almond Mix) / Soft Cell Journal 3 Music Selection: Keeps My Body Warm / Abra Moore Journal 4 Music Selection: Fantasy (long version) / Earth, Wind, and Fire It’s very strange being in my last month here. I’m feeling all sorts of things. Anxious to go back to some kind of familiar, sad to leave what I’ve come to know and difficult to begin sorting out all I’m feeling. It’s really hard to put it in words. I don’t think I am able to explain so well unless you’ve experienced living in a different country. In making this my home I have found great difficulties in overcoming the language barrier. It’s not cultural differences I don’t think so much as perhaps trying to express oneself in one’s own language and then trying to translate it. It’s here where I believe misunderstandings happen. Sometimes being difficult enough to express myself in my own language in my own country here I have to take into consideration the fact of feelings being translated. When you think about that it makes sense, that in the translation it’s very easy for it to be misunderstood. I’ve in some ways, taken for granted the fact that most of the friends I have made here speak pretty good English. Without realizing it I expect them to understand me in my language and when we communicate I am expecting them to express themselves also in my language. The misconception comes in the form of their attempt to communicate and translate the best possible way versus my non-attempt. No wonder the French dislike Americans so much J If I didn’t have such barriers of my own in languages I’d have taken the time to learn more Dutch. But would a year have been enough time to be able to communicate in such a way that wouldn’t cause misunderstandings? Then there is the fact of trying to express feelings no one else that unless they were me could really know or understand fully. Like living in a different country where I’m the foreigner here trying to establish my friends and family where they already have. And not as any kind of insult to The Dutch but they aren’t the easiest people to get to know (in my experience). I try to put myself in their shoes if they were living in my country for a year. I think I’d have to be here a lot longer to maybe feel more a part of their circle of friends and family. In so many ways, I’m alone here. No, not feeling sorry for myself…but stating the fact that I just don’t have the same kind of established friends and family I’d like to have in living somewhere and calling it home. Friends I can simply call upon to share a beer or a bottle of wine and talk about nothing unparticular. So many times I’ve just wanted a friend to hang out with for an afternoon of sightseeing, movie watching or a nice dinner but mostly that intimate feeling of friendship where I can just pick up the phone to a friend asking about my day…good or bad, just those I feel I can pretty much talk to about anything. I’d like to think I can pretty much call home anywhere as I’m about to transition once again by my own choice to a different location. Perhaps it’ s because it’s really the 1st time I’ve gone to a different country for this amount of time that this is so prevalent, compared to having left Austin before to other places within the United States. All the same, I’m going to miss the friendships I’ve made here at whatever capacity greatly. Sad to leave what has already been established yet, I’d hope as in other connections I have made over the years in so many different places that most are consistent and for life. Maybe more in some ways with the simple fact they took longer to establish here in a different country. It’s my own journey…I’ve made these choices just to be able to experience life, whatever the results in the process. I don’t see anything as a bad choice or a wrong decision. Just observing and learning along the way. Otherwise my life would be quite dull and boring I think. Well…I think I’ll keep on in taking risks, facing fears and adventuring life as much as I possibly can…so…stay tuned and continue to expect the unexpected. Peace and Love, Jes |
| Journal Update: Thursday/April 13, 2006 Music reflects my Moods...and they vary from Moment To Moment! If you’re checking out past journal entrées pages 1, 2, and 3 be sure to start from the bottom up to receive in order. Click on any of the pics for a full size view. If you’re already caught up on my past entries and pics enjoy the Music Selections on those pages, changed w/ every update!!! A pop-up quiz will be given on all the updates on a date of my choice (so study away)! And for those my space people out there http://www.myspace.com/7435112 please add me!!! Main Page Music Selection: It Ain't what You Do/The Fun Boy Three w/ Bananarama Journal 1 Music Selection: (Journal 1 page and Music Selection dedicated to G.H. /JES CHILL'N) It's Going Down/Blackalicious Journal 2 Music Selection: Sex (I'm a Bitch Extended Mix)/Berlin Journal 3 Music Selection: Home/Abra Moore I just had a nice visit with my friend Marcos in London for a long weekend. I hadn’t seen him since 1st meeting him while passing thru on my way back from Greece 4 years ago. Gosh, has it already been that long? I want so bad to go back there but the opportunity just hasn’t yet presented itself. I’m confident that one day I’ll make it back. I’m sure of it…I’m that determined. You’d think I’d have done it while out here in Europe this year…it’s not so far away and the flights are cheap enough. I think I’m just waiting for the right time to go back with the right peeps to share the experience with. Next time I’d really like to check into one of those set your own course island hopping/rent your own boat deals. Last time I checked it was cheaper than accommodations and food if I can get 10 of my friends to do it. Anyone interested in sometime? It could be a great experience to be had by all. They’ve got these deals where they have a full crew cooking for you and your accommodations are right there on the boat…and you choose your own damn course. I’d want to go back to Santorini and Crete for sure. The pics of London posted here on this update were taken 4 years ago when I was there taken by my friend/travel companion, Jay from Dallas. Sorry…cop out maybe but I wasn’t at all a tourist there on this trip. It was a chill weekend spending time w/ Marcos. I intended on cooking up one of my special dinners one night for him to show my appreciation for his hospitality and free accommodations. I instead, end up cooking dinner for him and friends (8 of them that came out of the woodwork suddenly). Caribbean Chicken Breasts w/ me Famous Mash Potatoes and for dessert, Banana Pudding (Didn’t have the ingredients there to make Snickerdoodle Banana Pudding). I didn’t mind doing all the cooking for them. It was quite an honor actually. I can literally now give myself a label of “International Chef”. I’ve been cooking all over the place out here. Next stop professionally, Atlanta! So…I better get used to the challenge of cooking for groups of more than 2. The idea is to get the quality out w/ love…lots of it. I’ll have it no other way. I’m trying not to count the days in my preparation to go back to the States. It’s going to be a bit of a cultural shock I believe. Home has been here for a whole year. There is this excitement and uncertainty of the unknown ahead. And of course a great part of my heart will always go to Austin. How can it not? It’s been such a significant part of my life since 1st moving to the area at age 11 (gosh, has it already been 15 years since I 1st moved to Austin…ha-ha???). But I think I’ve discovered that there is plenty of love in my heart to go around. Just like people there are so many places I feel I need to see and experience still. Austin isn’t going any where. I’ve had times away and for long periods before. I’m certain, if life allows I’ll be back. I’m just following my heart at the moment and it takes me to Atlanta next. For how long, who the hell knows??? And I’ll have some time in Austin before that adventure begins…enough time to see my friends. Atlanta isn’t so damn far….a hell of a lot closer than the Netherlands. Good ole Southwest Airlines ;) So….seriously I need to put in motion the renting of my condo. I’ll post again on Craig list but throwing it out 1st amongst all of you there in Austin. Basically I am looking for someone I can trust. The place will come mostly furnished but all that is negotiable. I’m also at some point going to put it up for sale so that too, is negotiable. It’s available after Jun 1st. (It’s on Burleson Rd… just off Oltorf near bus lines okay so it’s not the infamous 78704 zip code but…it’s in walking distance). Any questions in reference to this please contact me immediately. I will need to jump right on this when I am back the weekend after the 31st of May so that I can be rest assured (I’m gong to need the cash flow to be quite honest pretty quickly and if I don’t get the place situated then it will delay my next move to Atlanta. If you, or anyone you know is interested please contact me ASAP by email (at the top of this page). So…there it is! My journal update in a nutshell…and oh yeah, I’m totally feeling like a nut at the moment. All these choices (making me nuts)…my own!!! It’s not so bad really…it all goes into the phrases I dig “why be normal” and “what’s normal anyway”??? Anyways, stay tuned and expect the unexpected… Peace and Love Always, Jes |